lose and gain

okay so i use to love buying clothes and i still do, but i hardly buy them anymore. back in high school up until sometime in college i was able to wear whatever i wanted, but now.. i'm not. i gave away and/or threw out all the clothes i use to love to wear. i bought some clothes that'll fit me but then last year i lost a little bit of weight and started to buy clothes again. then i gained weight so i am unable to wear those clothes and now they are just sitting in my closet in pdale. its hard to eat right when rhay and i have different schedules and the only time we can eat with each other is at 12am.. i hate losing weight and gaining it back and then some.. i need more exercise throughout my week.. i am trying to lose my weight and maintain it though..

another one..

a couple weeks ago my neighbor to the right moved out, a month before that the people downstairs moved out, two months before that other neighbors moved out, around november my neighbors to my left moved out and a couple days ago another neighbor of mine moved out.. why is everyone moving out?

we've gotten two letters saying that she will not act as manager from x-x date. after the second letter we thought that our landlord lady would be back but there has been no sign of her since december. i wonder whats going on cause our rent is due every first of the month and we slipped it through her door but our check has not cleared.

maybe its time for us to move out too.

a day in murrieta, corona, and riverside.

i left my place around 230 to go to riverside to pick up marlyn so we can go to murrieta but when the clock turn 4 and i was still on the way to riverside i didnt think i was going to make it to murrieta before 6! i hate the stupid traffic around here its horrible! but i made it in time and i got what i needed.

im tired but i still need to do some last minute things.. im still debating if i should go home tonight or even this weekend. i know its valentines day on sunday but im so angry! >:/ well see what happens..

hellllo weekend

i'm thankful for this long weekend.. although i always have a long weekend ;]

have you ever felt nervous, excited, anxious, and scared at the same time? i dont know how to handle this feeling. haha. i hope all goes well.

and another thought: is everyone watching teen mom a little too much? what i'm trying to say is that i feel that it is in the air for everyone to get engaged, married, and have a baby! am i getting old because this is what grown ups do! LOL i mean im not trying to hate on anyone..i just feel like life is happening way too fast! it was just yesterday i was watching barney. haha it was just yesterday. jk. but really it was just yesterday i was 12 and talking about "when we grow up" things.

what the...

urbandictionary said that

Paulette

A "slider" burger with bacon, cheese, onion, sausage patty, and chili.
Yo dog! I just went to Campau Tower and ordered a Paulette and fries to go.

LOL!!

i want my rain boots!

whats up with all these... ftw, lml, smh, fml talk? I CANT FREAKING UNDERSTAND YOU!!

anyway ever since schools started ive been super tired! like all the time! and its only the second week! gahhh.. i just gotta get use to it.. waking up at 6 is horrible! i just wanna sleep a little longer lol but i guess its good cuz i dont feel like ive wasted my day sleeping in... im hungryyy what to eat?!?!!!

im thinking about going home to pdale but if its gonna snow i dont know if i should. i wanna be around the snow have a snow fight and all that but i do not want to get snowed in! i dont wanna be trapped in pdale.. hahaa seriously though.

its been raining like crazy and i wish i brought my rain boots with me! i hope lin has her baby tomorrow so on sat i can go to pdale and visit her and get my rain boots! lol i cant stop thinking about my boots and how much itll help me cuz my damn school is flooded all the time! long beach is closed for the next two days.. i wish my school was too! i also have a 2 tests tomorrow that i dont wanna take LOL! ugh i gotta study like right now but not on an empty stomach...

im just blabbing to pass the time. bye

sore..

for some reason my body feels really sore. i cant even move an inch without moving. anyway before i begin my math homework i wanted to write because i thought about how weird my math teacher is! shes a little petite asian lady who does not look at her students. its so weird because when she faces the class to lecture shes always looking at peoples desks or the floor. its really distracting like i cant concentrate cause i just wanna look at what shes looking at! and once i stayed after class to ask her a question she didnt look at me the whole time i was infront of her. oo and she uses her peripherals alot because once i raised my hand when she was explaining something but she was looking at the other side of the room and, without looking my way, she said i see your hand ill get back to you. LOL! im like wtf MY YOURE WEIRD!!!

anyway enough about mrs. weirdo. i freaking hate math. i hate word problems, charts, and anything that as to do with math LOL!! i thought i would be done with math after college algebra. ehh oh well.. i'm listening to my A playlist which consists of dashboard confessional, rufio, the used, bloc party. etc.. rhay doesnt like it he thinks im mad at the world when i listen to it lol.