new year

its almost time for a new year and i really dont wanna be sick! ive been in bed drinking tea and tylenol like crazy! i hope i get better! i cant enjoy playing my wii!! haha jk but really.

but this up coming year things will be a little bit different.

moving?

so we got up early today to finish up a little xmas shopping and we found out one of our neighbors are moving.. and this is not just any neighbors.. its the loud big men neighbors. seriously. im kind of happy cuz they cause too much ruckus! anyway tomorrow is time for opening presents and i still havent wrapped mine! haha im waiting for tonight when rhay gets home. he was like ill put yours in a box and we can wrap together so you dont see yours and you can do the same too.. but what he doesnt know is that i already wrapped his haha in my home made box.. haha

ughh its only 4!.. im so anxious for rhay to get home! hes gonna be all mine for 4 days!! woohoo!!! we havent spent time together in a while.. i wanna go to disneyland lol

old days..

i really miss the good old days when i didnt have a care in the world..

just thinking....

so i just got a picture text from rhays mom and it was a picture of the front porch where she lives. it was snowing there and it looked so pretty i wish i was there to play in the snow!!

after that.. i was just thinking about mine and rhays conversation earlier about this past month... and he said.. sooner or later everything had to happen and good thing it happened now than later and everyones past it.. i dont care anymore.. my life is back to normal and im happy!

bored

everyday rhay asks me what are you gonna do today and my answer is.. nothing.. seriously i dont do anything now that school is over and its soo boring!! all i do is vacuum, dust, watch tv, clean, and organize EVERYDAY!!i really wanna go out and do something but i dont want to because im broke! it seriously sucks being this broke! ;/

well i have A LOT of time in my hands until jan and all other than the shit i do everyday.. i look at my school schedule and try to figure out what i want to take next year, i go on youtube and watch makeup/singing shit, and try to figure out what i want for xmas but i really dont know what i want.

im kinda glad for winter vacation but at the same time i really want to start school already. at first i couldnt wait until winter vacation cuz i was getting sooo sick of school.. taking classes that i dont really like and my teacher not showing up to class for a whole week.. its annoying.. but i cant wait to start classes next semester because im kinda excited.. i dont know why..

anyway im bored and im watching ladder 49.. i cry every time LOL!.. i wish it was 1130 already!

two turtles... or one..

there is a light green and a dark green shelled turtle... the dark green one has been sleeping since last night.. went to sleep before the light shelled one and it was still sleeping when the light one woke up!! i shook the box a little to wake it up but it wouldnt wake up!! i was like wtf!! so i told rhay and rhays mom went to get a pencil and tap it to see if it would wake up.. and it wouldnt.. she even moved it around a couple of times and it wouldnt move! i was really sad cuz i only had it for like 2 days... so i told rhay after he uses the restroom if he can throw it away ;[ ... i went in the room to get ready and rhays mom said its alive... well... i went back and looked and it still looked the same... then i stared at it for 15 mins and it moved!!! omg i felt soo happy!! but at the same time i thught about how rhays mom shook the turtle ;[ the turtle must be traumatized! lol oh well it beats throwing it away.. atleast its alive!!! and i fed it lettuce last night and it ate it!! hehee i threw away the pebbles it came with cuz i saw two little bugs in the bag!!! YUCK!!!!

it was a long morning

and its gonna be a longer night!! lol first off woke up at 7 to go to the mechanic cuz the stupid smog test failed yesterday and now we gotta go back on saturday cuz we couldnt get whatever needed to get fixed today! then as we were about to finally build our tv stand.. kuya called to meet up with us at first i was gonna go by myself but rhay decided to go to beat traffic in the carpool lane.. that was around 11.. he needed to be beack by atleast 2 to get ready and leave by 230 cuz he has work at 3.. but guess whatttt we hit traffic! on both ways!! luckily though we got back at 220 enough time for rhay to get changed and rush to work.. and there was a 4 car accident on the freeway!

anywy now its 3 and im super tired! i wanna rest before i have my cpr class today.. 6-930 UGH!!!! i hope i dont get lost going to the hospital and finding the auditorium! haha i hope i pass this cpr class cuz ive been wanting to do this for so long and the class is just long!

but when i get home im cooking mexican tonight! mmmmm and we bought ceviche yupp im excited LOL!

ugh its only 9 ;/

i love my cousins, they're more like sisters..... well almost all of them

im seriously craving aycekbbq! ugghhh just seeing pics and what not makes me sooo hungry!! i was thinking that im going to be bored out of my mind tomorrow.. but i forgot that im going to riverside tomorrow.. i might be just really quick.. i dont want to stay that long and too late cuz i have class all day the next day. i havent been taking pictures.. i should though i still have about 10 rolls of film and 2 more projects left.

i downloaded in my life and surprising it only took me 20 mins! thats a record! but i want to download cry status tagalog movies! ughhh im dying for a good cry hahaha.

burning dvds take forever! gosh 1 almost done and ... 15 more to go!! wtf i might just give up! anyway ive been stuck on this stupid scrapbook website thanks to marlyn! and ive been wanting to scrapbook now! but i left all my damn stuff at home and i shoulda brought it with me when i had the chance! i guess i would just like to think i would but i dont really have time to.

i am extremely happy for my two cousins on their engagement! i cant wait for the wedding[s]! LOL

its decided

nenes a bully hahahaa

never lose trust in xanga!

try

nothing i can do
to keep my heart away from you
i can't help it
i can't tell you how much i try

to get you off my mind
to help me move on and just live my life
I can't help it
I can't tell you how much I try

school has started

since school started i feel like i have no time to do anything.. and there are days that i dont have school but its tooo freaking hot! by the time its not hot anymore and i actually do wanna do something.. i need to go to bed for class the next day LOL!!.. lame tho..

theres so much going through my mind that i dont even know where to start... ugghh i need to clean

some people never change..

and she wrote.... " Some people will never understand the situations your into until they get into the same exact shoes as your in."

OBVIOUSLY if you talk to that person and try to help them understand im sure they will be understanding.. so shut the fuck up because your are annoying LOL!!! im just saying... ;]

fuck you and your motherfuckin comments.. its not needed.

5 MORE DAYSSS

but i still dont feel like packing LOL!

baaaayyyyybbbeeeee

here are a couple things that I found out that are interesting and may be helpful to you!! I kinda actually had fun looking at these things! I hope you enjoy reading this!! and if you have anymore questions ill be glad to look it up!! hehe

1. some pregnant women experience morning sickness in the morning, some feel it all day, and some never have it. Your doctor may or may not mention this because there is nothing your doctor can do about morning sickness!

2. When it comes closer to your due date you may feel the urge to clean and prepare the babies room!! Its good to do this because youll have time to be with your baby rather than worrying about the baby room.. but MAKE SURE YOU DON’T OVER DO IT!! bad for your health!!

3. In your first trimester you can be forgetful so to avoid this you can make lists because going to the doctors can even be less important to you when you have your baby on your mind

4. You WILL experience mood swings!! Occurs more frequent in first trimester

5. You might have color changes on your skin.. like nipples will get darker or that line under your belly button will get darker or spots of uneven color… it cant be prevented but if you were sun screen it can help minimize it..

6. ITCHING!!! DON’T SCRATCH YOULL GET STRETCH MARKS! Ask your doctor for cream!!! And use cocoa butter!! It smells good too!!!

7. Yah youre pregnant and your gonna have to buy pregnant clothes.. you might not even fit into your shoes too!!! WTF!! Pregnancy causes your body to swell cuz of the fluids… girl don’t buy new shoes.. if you do.. just buy slip ons its easier to put on and take off!! Hehe

8. EXERCISE!!! Its good for you and your baby!!
a. It’ll help you feel better!
b. Help boost your energy level
c. Relieve backaches
d. REDUCE CONSTIPATION
e. And it might even help you sleep better by relieving your stress
f. It will help you prepare for your birth by having strong muscles!
g. Have a good body after birth! Well quicker than usual..
h. Statistically studies show that it lowers the risk of complications
i. But ask your doctor for the right exercises you should be doing.. you don’t wanna over do them..
j. Heres some exercises to avoid
i. Bouncing
ii. Sudden change of directiong
iii. Anything that has to do with up and down
iv. And abdominal injuries…
v. Contact sports

9. Avoid sitting for a long time and elevate your feet when you sit

10. Hemorrhoids — varicose veins in the rectum — frequently occur during pregnancy as well. Because your blood volume has increased and your uterus puts pressure on your pelvis, the veins in your rectum may enlarge into grape-like clusters. Hemorrhoids can be extremely painful, and they may bleed, itch, or sting, especially during or after a bowel movement. Coupled with constipation, another common pregnancy woe, hemorrhoids can make going to the bathroom downright unpleasant.


heres a week by week pregnancy calendar
CLICK HERE

pack?

i was told that i should be packing already.. i guess... theres still A LOT of time.. i mean.. its not til three weeks from now so i dont see why i have to be packed already... i wanna go shopping..




Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections

sick ;/

what a weekend... got really messed up on sun night that i didn't end up meeting with my cousins the next day at the beach.. it took me the whole day to recover and i'm still recovering!! my chest hurts so much.. i feel pressure on my chest that i cant even take a deep breath... [NEVER AGAIN!!] at least i didn't drink or smoke yesterday! had some people over again and it was pretty chill.. watched the game and then a movie and we cooked for our guests LOL! Camille's little dog sadie came and she was so cute! ran around the apt like she owned it! lol she's a fietsy one though...

found this thing on facebook and it was funny.. it brightened up my day .. go to the bottom of the page and click on "ENGLISH (US)" then when all the languages pop up click on "ENGLISH (PIRATE)" ... only for a little while cuz then it started getting hard to understand it!! hahaa now im just chillen at home and trying to get myself back to normal... maybe clean cuz its a mess in here!!

LACMA

i always wanted to go here everytime i passed by it and now we finally did!! next time it'll be at night... t'was a fun carefree day.. i'm waiting.. always waiting.. blaaahhhh ---- oo i just remember i had three crazy dreams last night... weird..

it will all be over this week ;]

okay so this is rhays ankle in the healing process.. from the first day it happened, two days later, and a week after. so im glad to see that its getting better and he can walk without limping... a little..

// first final today and im glad that political history is over with!! U.S history cannot bore me any more than it already has! i think it's just the teacher cuz i sure did like world civilization! tomorrow will be tough.. after my fourth exam i seriously just stopped paying attention hahaa i have no clue whats going on and i dont seem to care.. i just want this week to be over and done with.. then it will all be chill and lazy days LOL!!!

thanks

in your hardest times you find your bests friends....

and you know what.. thats soo true.. you never expect the people in your life to be there for you when you need them or when you dont need them.. its so weird how that ends up and turns up!! and im so thankful for these wonderful people i have in my life... even through my weirdest times, my hardest times up to my happiest times i wouldnt want anybody else experiencing and giving me advice through it all...

as much as i am excited for what my future has in store for me.. i seriously can wait..

you cant get the best of both worlds

its freaking hot today i cant stand it!! even at 8 in the morning it was already getting hot! uggghh.. i feel so gross!! i cant even take a good nap because of thiss freaking weather!!!!

i have a big project due on friday and i havent started.. i dont even have a clue on what the heck im gonna do it on and i have to send my teacher pics so i can put it on my project!!! wtf!!!!! ehhhh 5 more weeks of school left!!!! ahhhh!!! im counting down and at the same time.. im nervous for gradesss i just really wanna get everything over with because im so behind with life!! i wish i could have done things differently when it comes to school but i cant change things now...

umm... its only 10 pm and i havent done anything all day haha i need to start working out though... i always say that but it never happens.. blehh its so hard to start and keep going...

im excited for ceramics tomorrow.. in a way but it gets so hot in class we dont even have ac in there!! bleh ive been in the living room with the door open since 7.... its still hot though.. no breeze at all!

im just rambling about random things..

done for now

surprise surprise.. ehh im thankful but i dont want this to only happen because im saying that im unhappy... im studying while watching wanted. oh how fun chem can be! NOT!!!


my mind is so mixed up i dont even know where to begin or how to begin... i wish we all came with like manuals to tell us what to do when we ourselves dont know what to do.. haha lamee

this all was the highlight of my night

i talked to my mom on the phone for almost an hour and thats a record.. for the past couple months we've only been talking like 10-15 mins cuz ive been busy or tired or whatever... but tonight we just kept talking.. about nothing but anyway i was telling her how she should learn how to text because my tito eddie knows how so she should too!! i mean.. shes not that old to not be texting!! my friends grandmother texts her!! soo..... we hung up and 5 mins later she texts me 'love u call u later' and im like WTF!!?!? she just texted me!! im soo amazed!!! i texted her back 'haha wow! you do know how to text! you amaze me mama!' haha and all this time im laughing cuz im like wtf!?? she texts me back 'haha see i know' ' i told you na marunong akong mag text' and i text her back 'hahaha you crack me up! im laughing alot right now!'

hahaha its soo funny how when she finally texts me she also texts me in tagalog!! haha shes crazy funny.. but wait.. she did text me once.. but it was picture text!! hahaha that was the highlight of my night when she took a pic of herself and texted it to me... my mom is weird.

lions, tigers, and bears

I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears (no I'm not)
But I'm scared of (loving you)
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair (that's right)
But I'm scared of (loving you)
Am I the only one who thinks it's an impossible task
Why it don't last? Is that too much to ask?
Why do we love Love,
When Love seems to hate us?

Sorry if I sound so filled with gloom.
You say you care, and I know you do...
But this is from my experience
And my conclusion only makes sense.
Just cause I love you, and you love me
It doesn't mean that we're meant to be.
I can climb mountains, swim cross the seas
But the most frightening you and me.

Most circumstances, I know my fate
But in this love thang, I don't get the game.
Why does it feel like those who give in,
They only wind up losing a friend.
Just cause I love you and you love me,
It doesn't mean that we'll ever be.
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the queen
But the most frightening thing is you and me.

I'm sure though I'm not sure
But if we never try, We'll never know
It's better to have loved then not to loved at all.
Not trying is worse than to stumble and fall
And if we do, I'd rather it be with you
Cause at least there will be sweet memories.
Oh I'm not scared...

i hate it all