rough arms

for as long as i can remember i've always had rough arms.. i've always wanted to do something about them but never did. There was this one time when i first started college and i saw a doctor about it. i really thought they were gonna help me cause they seemed like they knew what they were talking about and they gave me steroids cream to put on my arms. the steroids made my arms feel super weak and thats pretty much all it did. my arms didnt get better so i stopped using it. after that i just really gave up cuz i didnt think anything would work.

three months ago i started using "buffy" a body soap from lush and it felt really good. i thought it was going to work but i was wrong again! it did make my arms feel smoother only because of the oils it left behind. the little bar of soap was oily regardless if it was wet or dry. it had almond chunks, shea butter, rice grains, cocoa butter, and a couple other things. the little grains of rice and almonds felt good like it was scrapping against my skin and after i washed it down my arms felt smooth because of the shea butter, cocoa butter, and oils. but it left like... oils i dont know how to explain it but i guess its kinda like.. when you wax your upper lip or arm pits or bikini area and you still have a little wax on you, you cant just wash it cuz its sticky so you have to use the wipes that come with it.. the soap just stays on your skin for a while until it the smoothness fades out. lol i dont know... anyway i just stopped using it after the bar was gone..

well a month ago ive been going to the doctors alot and my doctor saw my arms and said "oh would you like something for your arms i know exactly what that it" and im like whaaaaat? really? YES!!! hahaha she said it was like oil built up and got clogged in my hair follicles thats why its rough and someone in my fam has it cuz its genetics or something.. anyway she prescribed me this lotion, but when i got my to pharm they didnt have it so they gave me 3 seperate lotions that is equivalent to it, and im using it right now.. ive been using it on and off cuz i got sick and couldnt get outta bed and all that soooooo hopefully this will work!my arms do feel smoother but then again thats what i thought when i started using buffy.

i just came back to the doctor from taking the tetnus and tb shot.. my arm is sore and i have so many things to do today... ughh . anyway we got a care package from rhays mom and she got us shampoo, cups, shavers, vitamins, sponge for the dishes, a nice purse, and a whole bunch of other things lol feels like im in college and its finals but my parents never sent me a care package i just went home to get want i needed lol..

it's been a while since i haven't written.. i've been busy but not really. i'm out of school now for the summer and looking for a summer job is not easy! so what should i do for my summer other than... nothing?

the weather has been really weird but i guess it beats those really hot summer days! esp since i dont have ac i rather not sweat just sitting down.. haha

but what i really want to do is go home to pdale get all my scrapbook stuff and start makng another scrapbook.. or two.. i just need to figure out what pics i want to print out.. and that part is going to take a while cause i have alot of pics to print out! the good thing about having a digital camera is that you can pick and choose which pics to print, you dont have to get them printed right away, and its already in your computer.. but if you wait to long to print them out it can be very costly! anyway.. i just dont like driving to pdale cause i hate driving the 14.. its long and boring.. ;/

i bought a beach umbrella the other day and now its cold again.. whhhyyYY!!!!!

why is it that when you have nothing to do your day goes by so slow? and when you have so much to do there isnt enough time in the world?? and when your waiting for something it feels like forever for it to come..

5 weeks feels like foreveeeerrrr ;/

impressions.. the dental kind..

for one of my class assignments/projects we have get a partner and take impressions on each other.. i wasnt really looking forward to it because the last time i've ever taken impressions was senior year in high school and it was not a good experience. the last year of high school i was taking this dental assisting class which we also had to pair up with someone to take their impression. i had no clue what to expect cause i've never done them before neither has anyone done them to me. well my teacher decided to give us a snack break before taking impressions and that day i remember i had lasagna. so we got back to class i took the impression on my partner and when it came to me .. it did not go too well. as soon as she placed the tray in my mouth and pushed it into my teeth i felt the material (alginate) squeeze threw the tray and slowly run down my throat. the girl did not wait long enough for it to harden a little and it was so runny that when it touched my tongue i threw up my lasagna all over my white scrubs! but that wasnt the worse part. the worse part was that i couldnt even take the runny tray out of my mouth cause it would be more messy as oppose to letting the alginate set then taking it out. it was the worse 3 mins ever. and it took atleast 5 washes for the stain to get out of my scrubs! >;T

well last thursday i decided to let my partner take my impression first. of course i told her my past story and thought she would be careful with me. i sat on the chair while she got trays that she thought would fit in my mouth. she came back and the trays didnt fit. after the 5th time she tried i started worrying. so i told her to do my lower first cause the upper is that hardest. she did my lower... okay... i gagged and tried not to think about throwing up and lucky me she did it right. now time for the upper. our teacher came and helped out cause of the pain she was putting me through shoving every single tray in my mouth cause non of the would fit. finally found one and she set everything put it in my mouth and it was just a little runny that i had to keep my tongue in a certain way so i wouldnt feel the alginate, close my eyes, and wiggle my feet so i would distract myself. when it was time or her to take it out i wanted her to hurry cause i felt my lunch about to come out lol. but OMG was she soo slow.. ughh i hated it!! so after that she had to pour my impression up with plaster and then later we'll make bleaching trays. i was hoping she didnt mess up on the plaster part because if she does we'd have to start all over.. well today she said everything turned out great! and tomorrow i will be doing it on her! but after class she said she really didnt get to experience doing it cause our teacher helped out with the impression and our other teacher hepled her out with the plaster... UGGHHH!!!! noooooooo!!! i felt bad and i said ill let you do the upper (so i can keep one) but she wants to do both upper and lower... what should i do.. she already did them!! >;o

new neighbors..

yesterday we heard people moving in next door so on our way out we peeked in to see who it was.. its not new neighbors.. they lived a couple of doors away but had to switch apartments because their roof was leaking and during the rain all their furniture got ruined. im not sure if i like these neighbors yet.. they hang out with the weirdo from downstairs whos always out smoking and leaving their cigarette butts everywhere.. and they are loud and the list goes on.. ;/ i really wanna move...

lose and gain

okay so i use to love buying clothes and i still do, but i hardly buy them anymore. back in high school up until sometime in college i was able to wear whatever i wanted, but now.. i'm not. i gave away and/or threw out all the clothes i use to love to wear. i bought some clothes that'll fit me but then last year i lost a little bit of weight and started to buy clothes again. then i gained weight so i am unable to wear those clothes and now they are just sitting in my closet in pdale. its hard to eat right when rhay and i have different schedules and the only time we can eat with each other is at 12am.. i hate losing weight and gaining it back and then some.. i need more exercise throughout my week.. i am trying to lose my weight and maintain it though..