you cant get the best of both worlds

its freaking hot today i cant stand it!! even at 8 in the morning it was already getting hot! uggghh.. i feel so gross!! i cant even take a good nap because of thiss freaking weather!!!!

i have a big project due on friday and i havent started.. i dont even have a clue on what the heck im gonna do it on and i have to send my teacher pics so i can put it on my project!!! wtf!!!!! ehhhh 5 more weeks of school left!!!! ahhhh!!! im counting down and at the same time.. im nervous for gradesss i just really wanna get everything over with because im so behind with life!! i wish i could have done things differently when it comes to school but i cant change things now...

umm... its only 10 pm and i havent done anything all day haha i need to start working out though... i always say that but it never happens.. blehh its so hard to start and keep going...

im excited for ceramics tomorrow.. in a way but it gets so hot in class we dont even have ac in there!! bleh ive been in the living room with the door open since 7.... its still hot though.. no breeze at all!

im just rambling about random things..

done for now

surprise surprise.. ehh im thankful but i dont want this to only happen because im saying that im unhappy... im studying while watching wanted. oh how fun chem can be! NOT!!!


my mind is so mixed up i dont even know where to begin or how to begin... i wish we all came with like manuals to tell us what to do when we ourselves dont know what to do.. haha lamee

this all was the highlight of my night

i talked to my mom on the phone for almost an hour and thats a record.. for the past couple months we've only been talking like 10-15 mins cuz ive been busy or tired or whatever... but tonight we just kept talking.. about nothing but anyway i was telling her how she should learn how to text because my tito eddie knows how so she should too!! i mean.. shes not that old to not be texting!! my friends grandmother texts her!! soo..... we hung up and 5 mins later she texts me 'love u call u later' and im like WTF!!?!? she just texted me!! im soo amazed!!! i texted her back 'haha wow! you do know how to text! you amaze me mama!' haha and all this time im laughing cuz im like wtf!?? she texts me back 'haha see i know' ' i told you na marunong akong mag text' and i text her back 'hahaha you crack me up! im laughing alot right now!'

hahaha its soo funny how when she finally texts me she also texts me in tagalog!! haha shes crazy funny.. but wait.. she did text me once.. but it was picture text!! hahaha that was the highlight of my night when she took a pic of herself and texted it to me... my mom is weird.

lions, tigers, and bears

I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears (no I'm not)
But I'm scared of (loving you)
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair (that's right)
But I'm scared of (loving you)
Am I the only one who thinks it's an impossible task
Why it don't last? Is that too much to ask?
Why do we love Love,
When Love seems to hate us?

Sorry if I sound so filled with gloom.
You say you care, and I know you do...
But this is from my experience
And my conclusion only makes sense.
Just cause I love you, and you love me
It doesn't mean that we're meant to be.
I can climb mountains, swim cross the seas
But the most frightening you and me.

Most circumstances, I know my fate
But in this love thang, I don't get the game.
Why does it feel like those who give in,
They only wind up losing a friend.
Just cause I love you and you love me,
It doesn't mean that we'll ever be.
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the queen
But the most frightening thing is you and me.

I'm sure though I'm not sure
But if we never try, We'll never know
It's better to have loved then not to loved at all.
Not trying is worse than to stumble and fall
And if we do, I'd rather it be with you
Cause at least there will be sweet memories.
Oh I'm not scared...

i hate it all

i hate it all