lose and gain

okay so i use to love buying clothes and i still do, but i hardly buy them anymore. back in high school up until sometime in college i was able to wear whatever i wanted, but now.. i'm not. i gave away and/or threw out all the clothes i use to love to wear. i bought some clothes that'll fit me but then last year i lost a little bit of weight and started to buy clothes again. then i gained weight so i am unable to wear those clothes and now they are just sitting in my closet in pdale. its hard to eat right when rhay and i have different schedules and the only time we can eat with each other is at 12am.. i hate losing weight and gaining it back and then some.. i need more exercise throughout my week.. i am trying to lose my weight and maintain it though..